Saturday, 15 October 2016

My Very Late Mental Health Awareness Day Post



Mental Health Awareness

So a more serious post and sorry about how ridiculously late it is! J

Many people when they think of mental health awareness tend to think of depression, bipolar, schizophrenia, anxiety etc . It’s understandable. I do to. However there are many things to do with mental health that many people do not know. Mental health issues can be a serious destroyer of physical health. Mental health issues can also be left completely uncaught because people can have high functioning mental health issues. This sometimes can be worse than just having your basic mental health issues actually. I know because I am a sufferer and many times it has played holy hell on my physical health. Let me explain.

High functioning depression and anxiety is what I have. Previously diagnosed but I stopped attending GP meeting s because I felt I was wasting my time (please do not follow my suit if you suffer, we all have individual needs and coping mechanisms). Mine a product of years of abuse and emotional neglect. I mention this because I want people to know that you can improve and attain positivity no matter where you are starting from. So now it’s untreated and I deal with that shit. And honestly it’s not something I tell people about because I hate the stigma. It’s something I hide very well, and my life looks totally together. The average person would think I totally have my shit together. They think I am totally dynamic and strong. Not many people know that actually when you’re talking to me I probably suffered three panic attacks and my anxiety is at 70mph trying to figure out the correct response to you communicating with me. It’s something I am constantly dealing with. 24/7. I even get panic attacks as I am about to sleep because I am worried that I don’t have time to sleep I have got way too much shit I need to be doing. Basically high functioning anxiety is where you have anxiety but it does not “cripple” your life. You are still highly functioning. It is the same with depression.

Many people would ask so what’s the big deal if you can get on with your life? The deal is that actually it’s torturous. You suffer in silence. And it makes life very hard and it takes a massive toll on your immune system. There’s actual science to it. And the suffering in silence means you deal and deal and then you have massive episodes. So for anxiety you would end up breaking down because you just don’t want these panic attacks no more, and this breakdown can involve heart palpitations, sweating, struggling to breathe and feeling very faint, and puking. Depressive episodes . . . .well you lose the will to live and don’t want to face the world. You withdraw. You ghost for a couple days so no one knows your issue and then you come back highly functioning again. If you manage to pick yourself up(some people don’t and that’s how you end up with people you were talking to who seemed so happy the other day dead the next). Technically high-functioning can be more dangerous because it’s untreated and/or not worked around.

I am in no way telling my story for sympathy. I’ve got mechanisms in place that help me deal with the high functioning silent dangers. I got myself with this. But I guess I wanted to write this to let people know that this stuff is very real, and just because it’s high functioning it’s no less serious than the standard or chronic versions. So when you encounter people in life just realise you don’t know what they are dealing with, always be kind. Always come from a place of love. Don’t judge, don’t stigmatize, be open-minded and gentle. Stigma is what stops people from admitting they may need the help, and what can be the cause of silent killers like high functioning depression.
If you’re interested in this, feel you relate, or feel you may know someone suffering with such a thing I have provided some links at the end of this. Basically reading all of the links gives you a better picture. The same symptoms of standard depression and anxiety are suffered, just hidden better and creep out in more subtle ways, like fidgety hands (anxiety), lack of awareness (depression).

All love people. Love could cure many things. And some people just need a little love in their day. It might help them deal!

One love!

Symptoms of high functioning depression:  

Tips for people who may know someone:

Symptoms of high functioning anxiety: http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Anxiety/Pages/Symptoms.aspx

Tips for people who may know someone: 


And if you related to anything I said, or any of the links don’t feel alone! You’re not. Trust me reaching out to at least one person can help you put mechanisms in place that help you deal! Reach out!!!

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