Wow I completely forgot about this blog. And reading back on it I remember a much stronger happier me. Life can be hard. And on this note I want to talk about a Robin Williams inspired topic and depression and anxiety.
Lets tackle that stereotype that suicide is selfish. Lets tackle the stereotype that depressed people don't help themselves and are just miserable things. Lets tackle the stereotypes of all mental issues. I'm going to be brutally honest to the point I may even get into trouble right now.
Recently I have been told my body is suffering physically under the pressure of anxiety stress and sadness (I like to call depression sadness because of the brush I get painted with if I say depression. People assume I'm no longer a human being and that I'm a consistently sad gloomy creature if I say depressed). And a certain family member told me to simply man up and that its all in my head. Yes it is. Yes I am suffering an emotional and mental tidal wave of sh*t in my life. I'm 22 and lived a life many 40 year olds have not even imagined. And I would like to be accepted rather than excluded because of sh*t that isn't in my control. See a professional told me if I cant change life circumstances I need to accept them. How can I accept anything when no one else will be accepting with me?
But I also have my good days where I function well and I feel on top of the world. I have someone that loves me, but my world is fragile. See a lot of depressed people have a lack of social support. They've been through bad experiences like me and would not dare to believe that their happiness could possibly last as its a far way to fall if they do, and they've fallen so many times and there is only so much someone can take before they simply can't get back up. Especially when there's no friendly hand or support.
Then there's need to feel like you have purpose and that you are needed. There is the need to feel like there is hope that this fucked up world can actually be okay. Once you lose any of those while you're depressed and in pain, then you don't see a future of happiness. A lot of people who have had negative experiences in life (beaten, raped, suicidal parents, parents that don't care, heartbreaks and being used, being stuck in a life that you never asked for) feel like the future is bleak, and understandably so if they have had many negative experiences. And being judged by the so called normal people only makes things worse. People suffering mentally and emotionally are just as human as anyone else if not more human than some people on this earth. It can even get to the point where some people really don't want to go through one more day of this if there's no sign of life letting up on them, and hey if they feel they have no one and no purpose who's it gunna hurt? So don't assume suicide is selfish. Don't assume people always have control over depression and anxiety. A lot of it is situationally caused, and all it can take is a loving helping hand to present a light in their life sometimes.
So next time you wanna say someone is f*cked up or selfish, you should really wonder why they are. Question the reasons for someones behavior, maybe they are just really hurting inside. Maybe life has seriously worn them down. Maybe they need support. Maybe they've been crying out for support but people have just made fun of them and been judgmental pr*cks. Maybe you should remember they still have their good days and want more good days, they don't enjoy the way they are feeling they don't want to be like it.
Peace out. x
