So I haven't posted in a while. Sorry. My bad. So yeh here I am, giving you a post. I actually want to talk about something that I strongly feel connected to. World Suicide Prevention Day .
No I have not ever tried to commit suicide don't worry ;) my sexy butt is firmly alive and doesn't plan on Ascending from this life yet.
However I have dealt with friends and family who have tried/wanted to try and I love them all dearly and know that it breaks my heart every time this occurs. So I feel I want to be serious, and talk about this.
First things first, If you feel so low that you are considering suicide and just happen to be reading this. Please don't do it. I know you probably feel alone and hate this life, you'd rather a few seconds of intense pain for the bliss of a lifetime of nothingness and no pain emotionally or physically ever again right? Or there are some people who have lost someone and believe they want to go be with them, hug them, talk to them, laugh with them? I promise you suicide is not the answer.
The loved one you lost would want you to live life, be happy, help other people be happy, be an inspirational part of someones life, they would definitely want you to cherish what they no longer can have.
Those of you feeling low and in pain and jut feel so alone..... there are people that care about you. I care about you. I promise there is another way out of this hole you're stuck in. I also know you're going to read that and think no one understands how desperate you are right now just to be out of it all. I lied when I said I never tried. I know how desperate you're feeling. I've been there. And for people calling them selfish for even contemplating it. You have not ever been this low to understand that you feel this is the only bit of control you have left and its the only way out of a life time of shit and people pushing you back down. There is only so many times people can pick themselves back up before they want to give up. Guys I have felt all this. I have felt so much hate for everything tieing me down to this life, I have just wanted out. But someone helped me, they kinda guided me out of this dark hole I was in. And for that I will never stop caring about them. If you don't have that person, I promise I will be there for you if you need someone. Even if you don't know me add me on (just click the word) Facebook. I know how you are feeling you don't need to be ashamed of it, you just need to talk and find someone who can give you that little nudge to the light if you like. I have also been on the side of suicide where I've nearly lost people to it. I am not one of those people going round calling them selfish as everybody's circumstances are different. Okay you get the people who are attention seekers and don't really try to kills themselves, they just pull stupid stunts in hope that someone will feel sorry for them and change their life for them. That's ridiculous. Only you can change your life, you can get help and someone to support you. But you are in charge of you. But then some people have lost all train of rational thought and honestly see a lifetime ahead of them full of pain, tears and darkness. And it is them that I will not judge but try to understand and help them realise there are good people on this earth that want to help them. :) I promise. Its devastating when you know someone is that desperate , but we weren't to know, so please just tell someone so they can give you a hug and tell you its all going to be okay, so they can support you and be your hand to hold while you build yourself back up and show that some people wont push you back down into that hole. I promise I wont. I never would wish what I felt upon anyone.
I CARE :)
I have had some serious shit happen in my lifetime, so don't think I dont know how desperate some people can be. But then you need to remember that people have different ideas of what problems are. So anyone no matter what you're problem is, dont feel stupid. Talk! Let someone care about you. :) <3
I am proof that there is light at the end of it all. I'm not going to sugar coat it for you, it's hard but its worth it.
I've still got things to change in my life to be completely happy but it all starts with you willing to let someone in and help, willing to change what you want to change.
And to anyone who are okay with their lives. I hope you read this and decide that you want to help people in this situation rather than judging them straight away as "EMOS", that's not what they are. They are human beings like you and I who just feel desperate to be out of all the crap they are feeling.
My idea of helping is to abolish the hate, make love louder. Try to understand someone other than yourself.
Try to help someone see the good stuff in life.
I was at a bridge about to jump straight in front of a bus. I am glad to this day I never. I left my violent boyfriend. I now have two happy adorable children. I have amazing friends who would never let me go back to that. I have family who can be pain in the arses but I love them so much.
Onwards and Upwards.
No matter who you are, I want to help you, I care about you :)
So hit me up on facebook please :)
This is Master Nerdling offering the hand of friendship to any nerdling that may be reading this. :)
Over and out
x
p.s A picture that makes me giggle everytime when I'm down .........
